I feel on the edge lately.

I am in a personal year 5, which means instability and dealing with lot’s of changes.

April is a personal month 9. A time to finish things up, let go, move on.

I am a Virgo, an Earth sign. I like stability. I even enjoy rituals and routine.

All this change is making me a bit uncomfortable. Perhaps what bugs me the most is that the majority of this changes are created by people around me. They affect me, but since they are not of my own making, I have no control over them.

I like control, or the illusion of it.
I like the Emperor card. Clear boundaries, clear expectations, clear consequences.

As I was attempting to put my emotions into words, as usual, I reached for a Tarot deck.

I tend to see my world through the cards.
I asked my self which cards reflect what I am going through?

This month I am using the Gilded deck by Ciro Marchetti.

As I started to look at the cards the 8 of cups, the page of swords and the 3 of wands resonated with me.

I could see how the 8 of cups represents the things and the people that are moving out of my life.

The page of sword was clearly me nervously aware of the wind of change and getting ready to react.

The 3 of wands expresses my impatience. The way I see it, if change is coming we may as well get it over with. I am not good at waiting.

Yet not satisfied, I asked Tarot which card I needed to meditate on.

It did not surprise me that I got the Death card.

I see it as a reminder that change is inevitable.

The element of Death is water.
As we know, water likes to flow and merge.
Stagnant water is not healthy, after a while it starts to stink.

Water likes to go around obstacles, but over time water can shape rocks.

Death is inevitable. Sooner or later it comes for everyone.

This card reminds me that something has outgrown its purpose.
It is time to prune the old to make space for the new.

It is time to simplify. Let go of the redundant to concentrate on the essential.
It is time to surrender and accept the new order.